expressing myself...

Blogging seems to be a place where people tend to express themselves..

That's what I do most of the time.:P



All I want to say now is I'm sorry. I clearly know it's my fault. It's always my fault.(bad shirley) lol. I feel like I'm a dog right now. Anyway the point is I'm sorry.



We actually ESCAPED from the rehearsal that we suppose to attend today and did our dance practice. Just a while. Oh yeah dance practice. We're going to perform on 14th December for CFC high-tea or something like that which doesn't really matter because at the end of the day I'm so not going to get any food. So, practically the only thing I'll do is dance. Not only me, The same faces that performed for CFC RAYA celebration as well. This time we changed the song. How many times are we going to dance nachale nachale song again.. That's BORING!!! So,we changed the song to DOLA RE from Devdassssss.. Brings back the memories. It's the same song I danced for my school's Price Giving Ceremony 2 years back. And I'm trien my as* off to get back the steps. 2 years is really long. But currently I'm out of mood to dance.I just need some time to be OK atleast. Maybe be alone a while or something and get back to the dance.
Hopefully I dont doze off tommorow.. tILL THEN nitezzzzzzzzz

Break..

Well, yes, My blog was in a very long break. VERY, VERY, VERY LONG BREAK. I told that I'm a very lazy person in my first post.

Talk about time indeed it moves very fast. Like super duper fast. I'm in my third semester now and it's my final semester for my foundation course. Joining here on first I was like the chitter chatter of the batch and now I'm a little quiet(I think). Things did have change for good and some for bad. Staying far from family and being independent, I did learn a few things from here.
The first is BUDGET WHATEVER SH*T I DO!!!! I know I'm a spender. a very high one. What am I suppose to do? It's my nature. Not forget, Ever since I started college, Movies is like a past of daily routine. I've been to the theathre more than 10 times for the past 10 months. That makes I'm staying here for 10 months. Ilham is one scary place to live. I have switch on the lights every night.( you should know what I mean..:P)

However, I did learn about people a lot. Their characters, their daily life. Its cool to know at the same time can be pretty annoying. Anyway Ive gotta hit the shut down button right now cozz Ive got clothes piled up for me to iron and fold.. ( i hate doing that)..
so good nite folks...

life..life...life

When people ask me the question "HOWS LIFE?" last time, my answere will be like "hmmm ok la, just the same..with ups and downs" But now, when the question comes again, i go like "its fine, urs?"

The weird thing is, how did I change my answer??? Because of what?? Why?? When??

We can't answer all the questions that we ask ourselves. To know the answer, we've gotta seek it by ourself. Who am I going to ask? My sister.. Im pretty sure, I know what she'll tell..
anyway, Im burried with assignment, assignment and more assignment. and my finals for second sem are JUST AROUND THE CORNER.. so back to my assignment...

till then....ciow~~~~

those days.....

Its funny how things are now. We use to say we are not going to leave anyone of us but who knows what is fated. Ive moved out first and the next was Bad and Atiq seems to be busy with work and Susu has to babysit. ALL of us has our own lives now to look ahead and it is for our future. Studies, family, work seems to be all that we have now.
The last gathering we had was on Atiq's birthday and we didnt really spend much time together. I was rushing and things were like upside down. Not to forget I do miss how things were. Days we used to LEPAK together. The time we dithced kadet polis and KRS, went for swimming. Had pizza there. Influenced by songs. Text everyday eventhough we see each other everyday. The time we registered together at the tuition center and it was Susu first tuition. The time we hang out after tuition class at mamak store and have roti canai and ais kosong. The time we shared food in the canteen. The time we actually told all the stories. The time we cried. The time we got worried about each other. The time we slapped, pinch, and pull of tudung. The time I carried Susu. The time Susu's slipper flew and it was because of Bad. The time we re-do the kolam. The time I was mood out. The time we dont know what to do. The exam time. And the list seems to be going on and on and on....
Well, its true what people say, You gotta move with the time. Hopefully those time will come back. Atleast we'll have stories to talk about....

after a month..

Few things happened around.. Let me start from the scartch..

1) My oath taking ceremony.

It was ok. Nothing so great about it. Its just about us taking the oath but the interesting part was the dato's speech where he actually encouraged us to seek for new one after a break up."CULTIVATE THE NEW ONE" LOL.. yes we will dato...



2) Chris has to leave.

yeah sadly he have to. he got his scholarship n leave to aimst.. wow thrs a goood future for him. im very sure he"ll do well.. We also managed to do a farewell party for him, and he teared..awwwwwwwwwwwwwww..



3) WE VOlunteer to do social service.

this was awesome. we volunteer to clean up the zoo but at the end we (shangkra, yuni, me and sendrew) got ourselves get wet in the rain which was really nice. we even had ice cream after that. the cleaning up was not bad.. a very good experience. lol



4)anatomy project

we have to build a model of thorax n pectoral girdle. it was fun coz ours was the most coulourful n unribacage look like model..lol.



5)mid sem

my mid sem sucks n was ok.. physics sucks btw..lol..i was like lost seeing the paper..



and now this week, the whole week i didnt have class n its public hol tom.. YEAY!!!!



so my routine for the next 3 days is, sleeping, fbing and sleeping.. eating is not in the list...

First day after 3 weeks...

Yeap..First day indeed..
Woke up EARLY in the morning(6.30 a.m. is VERY VERY VERY EARLY in my dictionary), got ready and headed straight to the usual place where i always wait for MSU bus, And amazingly it came right on time today{weird} Reached MSU and the only thing I saw was this big logo which is really BIG..lol. Waited for Mohana at CNC, the usual place and she came 15 minutes later. As usual, we girls have so many things to chitter chatter about and that what we did while waiting for the accounts deparment to open at 9.00 a.m. While waiting, sendrew came and after a while chris came. Hence, the day begin. With my three friends. GOT ourselves the number and my number was like 1009!!!!!WHAT???!!!!!! sendrew was 1010 and chris's one was 1011, and then he told "IM NOT PAYING TODAY"..dey......
Out of sudden this lady begin to call up the numbers between 1011 till 1020, Mohana just took the number form him, grabbed me and headed to the counter, anf there it goes, settled!!MY THING!!!LOL..
Had to wait for sendrew, pity him..lol. while waiting all the stories came back..FLASHBACK!!lol.. and some bullying happened.. My friends love to bully me..{and I myself enjoys it sometimes..shhhhhhh} once he was done it was just nice for to meet up Yunithra.. And yeah we did a hell of walking. I was so hungry and wanted to have fast food. So we headed to Giant which was a bit of walk. Once there, we got a text saying "can you come to A608" from our mentor. We were like...what???!!!!!
so WE WALKED BACK..told you did a hell of walking today.. headed to her office as she was not in the room, did some signing(maklumla famous..=P), and got our new timetable which was like..crap!!!!! PHYSICS, CHEM, BASIC ANATOMY, MATHS 2, COCU!!!!!!!T.T
And not forget we got mentoring at 3.oo p.m. Mohana had to give something to her housemate so she say "come let's go to brunsfield". And we were like "cum, lets go. actually it was me"hahaha..
We went to level 5 where the swimming pool and a mini playground is. Did playing like a small kid (age is just a number..doesnt matter) AND NOT TO FORGOT, I ALSO DID SOME RUNNING.. they should know....:P
then archanaa asked to come over to her house, and thats what we did. AND THERE GOES MY DAY!! I GOT BULLIED!!! TO THE MAX.. BY USING MY STITCH!!!aarrrghhh!!! i was so damn exhausted thats for sure.
Then we left to MSU and i used the staircase. from 5th floor right up to ground floor..(arent im good).
Mentoring was ok until i got to know that we have to a community service and we have to volunteer ourselves to clean the zoo. {WHY?WHY??WHY???WHY ZOO????}
aS I DONT ANY OTHER CHOICE I HAVE TOO. The service is on 7th July.. sigh..Lets see how its going to be...lol

My oath-taking ceremony is this wed and I have to wear baju batik..sigh....

TILL THEN....ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

p.s/im cooking tomorrow!!!:P

SMILE..SMILE..SMILE..:)

Back to Shah Alam..

And yeah. I'm back to Shah Alam. Came around noon, cleaned up, unpacked, slept, woke up, bath, ate, did ironing and now back to FACEBOOKING. Results are out tomorrow and it's freaking me out to the maximum. Eventhough I slept like a log just now, I'm still sleepy. WEIRD!! Had a very weird dream and wish I't wont happen again...arrgh...Just to think of it, it makes me to shimmer..
Back to my daily routine tomorrow. Have to wake up at 6.15 a.m. and get the bus at 7.20 a.m.
sigh.

MSU here I come after 3 weeks!!!!!

SMILE..SMILE..SMILE..:)

gnirob..gnirob..gnirob..=S

What a boring day.sigh.........

I'm going back to Shah Alam after 3 weeks break and as i mentioned in my previous post, yeah I gotta start back EVERYTHING. Waking up early, prepare my own food, hunt for food, wash clothes, do my own bed and STUDYING!!! Well i have to get up early on Monday morning because i need to pay for the pre-reg and I got an information that MY RESULTS MAY COME OUT ON MONDAY!!!WTH???!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And I'm officially freaking out!!hate this way..It's the same feeling I had on SPM result's day.

sigh. I dont think so I did well for my exam and yeah my sister is going to freak out once she read this..So, here comes the dilemma.

SMILE...SMILE..SMILE..

What is your name meaning..... please check it

It is true and It is not it great. I know that your perplex of your name meaning so I have simple method for your name meaning please follow below instruction and find out what each latter of your name means. Then connect all the meanings and it describes YOU.
Instructions : What you do is find out what each letter of your name means.If you have double or triple letters, just count the meaning once.

For example: SHIRLEY LOURDES

S--> You are very broad-minded
H-->You are not judgmental
I-->You are always smiling and making others smile
R--> You are a social butterfly
L--> Love is something you deeply believe in
E--> You are a very exciting person
Y--> You cause a lot of trouble

L--> Love is something you deeply believe in
O--> You are very open-minded
U--> You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards
R--> You are a social butterfly
D--> You have trouble trusting people
E--> You are a very exciting person
S--> You are very broad-minded

Meaning of A - Z :-
A -> You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind
B -> You are always cautious when it comes to meeting newpeople
C -> You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it
D -> You have trouble trusting people
E -> You are a very exciting person
F -> Everyone loves you
G -> You have excellent ways of viewing people
H -> You are not judgmental
I -> You are always smiling and making others smile
J -> Jealously
K -> You like to try new things
L -> Love is something you deeply believe in
M -> Success comes easily to you
N -> You like to work, but you always want a break
O -> You are very open-minded
P -> You are very friendly and understanding
Q -> You are a hypocrite
R -> You are a social butterfly
S -> You are very broad-minded
T -> You have an attitude, a big one
U -> You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards
V -> You have a very good physique and looks
W -> You like your privacy
X -> You never let people tell you what to do
Y -> You cause a lot of trouble
Z -> You're always fighting with someone

FLASHBACK..=)

I know I'm trying to be myself again. As how I use to be. Funny?? Yeah I know... Met a friend last Sunday and she said "Shirley, you're not the Shirley I know..Back in Form 2.. The one that is always laughing, smilling, happy, clowning around" And I went like..."WHAT???!!!! YEAH I GOT THE POINT.." So, this is I am..

Secondary school was just OK.. That's all I can say. Yes, I did have fun with my friends,, Went out without parents knowing(oopsss..typical), went EARLY to school just to lepak with friends, volunteer to help teachers just to get out of the class, talking in class while teacher is teaching, right short messages in a piece of paper and giving to the friend next to you, represented school in various things(just to get out of school), small and STUPID fights with friends, misunderstandings among ouselves, jumping and hanging around like a monkey in school, chatting with teacher, PMR stress, went dark for MERDEKA dance, first show in school, choreopgraphed my first song, danced infront of people, talked in front of people, sprained both of my ankles at the same time(awkward), hated a few people, first crush, first heartbroken, few heatbrokens, untold stories, revenge, competition, racist, unsuccessful dreams, escape from uniform units, responsibilities as preseident, secretary and so on, eating in classrooms, brought handphone to school, suprise birthday celebration, went for swimming with friends, completed a year full in tuition center, having slurpee as lunch, sitting down infront of MAYBANK, hot guys with girlfriends, teasing and bullying, copying friends work, helping friends, RE-BUILT THE POND, FORM 5 ENGLISH CLASS, sitting infront, ADDITIONAL MATHEMATHICS, SPM PRESSURE, last minute preparation, rice with chicken from a shop under the bridge and THE LIST GOES ON..























I have to say I do miss my secondary school life despite the problems I had. But I did manage to find ways to create memories and be happy at times with my FRIENDS..

And this is a special one for SUSU, BAD AND ATIQ:
"sorry I didnt see you'all that day, Hope you'll understand. I'm very very sorry and missing you'll like hell T.T"

HELL I MISS THEM!!!

time to,

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

SMILE..SMILE..SMILE..:)

update..=p

Here I am once again back after a loooooooooooooooong break...TOLD YOU IM LAZY ON MY FIRST POST!!!!!hehehee...Anyway I'm under my first semester break and it's about to end. 3 weeks is quiet short yet BORING!!!! I know i suppose to catch up with my friends but due to something, i was cancelling all the plans..

• Mood swing..


• Hormone problem..

hahaha..=p

To be honest, yeah i can't wait for second semester. Can't believe I'm saying this but i can't wait to study.. THAT'S A BIG LOL!!!!



Went to JUSCO AEON yesterday with collegemates, and guess what unexpected happen..

While watching the movie, halfway, it went off. Then suddenly, this guy(the one that works there)came in and said BREAK!! I was like WHAT???!!!!"HEY I WAN MY MONEY BACK"..I was happy for a while hopping to get my money return because the movie was sort off BORING.. Yet it was screened back..TALK ABOUT UNLUCKY..sigh!!!!



Going to watch KNIGHT AND DAY tommorow!!YEAY!!! And i may go for second show on Friday or Saturday with Bad...LOL....



AND RIGHT NOW, I'M GOING TO HAVE MY MILO ICE FOR THE 3RD TIME OF THE DAY, AND HIT THE BED...



nitezzzz people...
SMILE...SMILE...SMILE...:)

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well well well, talking about laziness which i talk mostly in my blog..i am really a lazy pig.
gosh never knew i would say that from my mouth...hmm well life is not really goind well .im so unhappy with my result and i feel i have dissapointed many i know so all i want to do right now is do well n the best for my foundation..so currently al my playfool things, lovey dovy things, cuci mata, lepaking shud be reduced..like tats goin to happen..had to no choice..

i have no idea why but i'm not feeling good which i have no idea why...well life wat to do.. i cant blame my fate or the things written to happen to me.. i'm being so oldy right now...

back to myself..
coll life seems to be fine so far...busy with my projects assignments tutorial works n the list just simply goes on,,,it doesnt seem to have a stop or somthing..study study study..i jadi ulat buku ever since i enter coll.. thats so not me,,



p.s.:need to talk someone... really need to talk someone...

love stories...:P

i have came across so many love stories on love at first sight..a happy ending...being in a relationship for 9 years.getting married with the one you are with since secondary school...these things seems to be sweet when i heard..well, i do think sometimes whther i would get a chance to see the one my true one..

went through a few heartbroken yet i'm being a happy girl..well to think practically life has to move on and that person is not the only one on earth..with having that statement in my head, i'm moving on...
few other stories are like the more you fight, the more you hate or the more you make fun of a person, the more you will fall in love with.. havent heard that story yet as none my friends fallen in love in that way..

so
here i am...having another valentine's day..celebrating 18 years og being single..wow...i'm so proud of myself..used to tell my friends "after spm la..i'll hv a bf.." look at me now..after spm, after 18...n bluek..i;m being desperate..just telling my story..

WHATEVER IT IS..I'M GOING TO ENJOY MY VALENTINE'S DAY WITH MY NEPHEW..IF HE IS FREE..OR PERHAPS I'LL JUST GO AND HAVE A TEH TARIK WITH MY SIS AND CATCH UP...SINCE NOBODY ASKED ME OUT, SO I'M GOING OUT ON DATE WITH MYSELF..lol

as usual

my class was cancelled yesterday due to some activities in my university..so we decided to watch ASAL at mid valley..hehehe..lepak on the scd day of class..isnt that fun..hehehehee.. the movie was so n so..then we had our lunch at mc d..n lepak2...some funny things happen...but i would like to keep or private.. :P

class today was as usual...we went..the lecturer's introduce the subs..then they let us go back early.wakakkakaka..i like this so much...



with the sky being so blue, with the sun shinning bright..a perfect weather..standing at the beach..saw you approaching...came near....gave a kiss and told I LOVE YOU..

lepak day

the first day of class..i was so excited..a lil bit nervous though..well got the 9.40 bus eventhough my class is only at 11.00..sigh thats the last bus..catch it or leave it..if i leave it i hv to take a teksi..oo no man..budget..hehehe..got at MSU..n we waited as everyone to arrive coz we dont really know the place..it was not in the campus..there are few classes opposite campus..why i dont know...lol..we went to the class..ANNEXE 20.waited outside for a few minutes because the previous class was still goin on...then we went it...i was nervous a lil bit..eager to know how the lecturer going to be..then she entered..suppose to be a guy but he wont be teaching us..so its going to be MISS AZWA..she seem to be cool..she is nice..but sadly we got our 1st tutorial work..
we have to find on RED BLOOD CELL, WHITE BLOOD CELL , PLATELETS..
fine..those we basic form 5 chapter 1 biology..(i became sad coz i left all my notes at home).. had to do my own research now..sigh..then she added..to look on the established date, roles n responsibilties and programmes by WHO, UNICEF, UNESCO and FAO..
i was like what..huh..i became blur blur sotong for a momment..sigh...thats a lot to find..

then we waited for our next class and we got news from a guy saying that "att:MALAYSIAN STUDIES CLASS CANCEL" WHOA!!!! out of sudden i became to lazy to go tp class.. we wen to eat our lunch at ALI'S Corner.. our next class was at 3..so we decided to lepak at extreme park for a while..on the way we got news that BIOLOGY CLASS WAS CANCEL!!! another whoa... ON TOP THAT THERE IS NO CLASS TOMMOROW....another WOHOA!!!!
so the whole day we lepak at kfc then snap pic then went back..what a day..
my first day n no class..i shoudnt've postponed my driving...sigh..
anyway came home begin with my work and just finish..still got checking n i'm still finding..hopefully its ok...sigh...lets see how it goes...right now i'm crashing..

and here is the picture..

from left:mohana, archana,yunitra, me, chris and sendrew..

the same people except i'm not here n losheni is here...lol
spot the diff...hehehe

we snapped more but i'm too lazy to upload..check out facebook..n soon more pictures will be uploaded..till then GOOD NIGHT

MSU

let me update myself..
finally i've turn 18.now i can go clubbing eventhough i dont know when that thing is goin to happen..i can watch any movie i want..there's no 21 plus movie..so i can boldly just walk in...i worked as a waitress and got to know that there are people that doesnt know the meaning of table manners.. i ended up with lepaking wiht my friends...my sister intoduce Management and Science University to me and me to try out the scholarhsip...fortunately i got but unfortunately i only got 75%(who bother) staying at shah alam at apartment with friends..went for my orientation last whole week and tommorow my class begins(i'm not really sure how far thats going to happen)..
well indeed a long break...told every time..i'm such a lazy pig....wat to do..its in the genes..hehehhe..actually its in the body...i am a lazy girl n proud to say..here i am eing independent...no more curfue time for but i'm always ready to hit home...i love to sleep late but now i'm cathing with sleep..i love to eat junk food sometimes, and always drink milo ice made by me every night but now i'm eating biscuits, maggi mee, drink chocolate milk and always on budget...i hate to study but now i cant wait to study..

got my timetable last week and the 3 subs tom are:-

• Health Science(something new-i dont know whats it is about)
• Malaysian Studies(as much as i wana run away from history its catching me)
• Biology(at last my fav sub on the 1st-this will light me up)

unless they changed their mind to do something else..OH MY GOD!!!!

i'm doomed...orientation week was ok...had a few activities in group..didnt snap much pictures still new... got myself new friends as none my school or geng friends came with me to this campus..so everything is new...new environment..new place...new friends..new bed...new pillow...new bathroom...but same old me..the noisy one..lol..but i can be quiet sometimes..

missing kl like hell..ESSPECIALLY MY BED..

indeed what people say nothing's like home sweet home..but i would change the line..NOTHING'S LIKE ROOM SWEET ROOM...

MY ROOM=MY HAPPY PLACE.....

till then thats all i suppose..since i'm being free nowadays..(wait till my coursework pop up).i'll be updating..i think..(dont trust when i say will keep on updating)...

hehhehehe...

NITEZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz

40TH POST ON 01 01 2010

well well well..
hahahaha.. 40th post and on 1st January 2010!!!!!! i'm back..hehehe...
what shall i write i mean type...
~spm is over...hell glad its over!!!very happy!!!!
~went to scd sis place to release tension...
~christmas was good..eve at sis place n was drunk..hehehe...on the christmas day open house as usual...n on the scd day at sis plac.e.babysit the kids...n then back home..
NEW YEAR!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR people!!!!
it so BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
n i'm hearin wishes for me to find my sweet n true love this year!!!!
thx for the wishes everyone... but the sweet n true love love can wait... life has been very boring as i dun have anything to do,,
school over..finding job now..
miss my tuition.......

will keep on updated from now onwards...since i'm ver FREE!!!wakakka...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!